This and That and Some Other Stuff
My first day as sole bartender went off without a hitch. As you can imagine, the Monday day shift is not exactly slammed. I did make two Long Islands, though, and without me telling the people that ordered them the sordid tale of Crazy Lady, I was told they were yummy. Okay, it was two guys so they probably didn’t say “yummy” but still - YAY. Vindication - YAY! I also made a couple Kamikaze shots and a few dry martinis but outside of some draft (foam. Oh, foam!) and bottled beers, that was about it. Tomorrow should pick up a bit and Thursday, I heard, can get busy. We shall see how I do. I still hold my breath when people are pondering what to order, thinking: Oh please, don’t order anything I don’t know how to make! It’s interesting, bartending - yet another life skill I now have in my possession. *hair flip*
Speaking of hair flips, R said that he never “got” when I’d say that here on the blog but I actually did it in person this weekend, yes I did!, and he laughed his butt off. You know, those things in asterisks that I type? I really do them. Well, the *hurl* may not exactly be a HURL but you can best believe I make an exaggerated motion as if I actually will.
Yes, I’m weird. Yes, the Chocolate Strawberry martini shift drink(s) was (were) quite good. Yes, I’m still going out later with some friends from work to see some bands play at another bar and - Yes, it is Monday. What? Doesn’t everyone go out on Monday? No, actually… I’m here to tell you: THEY DON’T!
I’m very excited about my new job. I start on the 27th and I’m hoping this Cloud 9 vibe carries me on through til then. I have a very good feeling about the position, the company, the people I’ll be working with. It’s funny that its taken this long and while I certainly wouldn’t advise leaving the last company as I did (with no back-up plan), I definitely feel this opportunity was worth the wait. Even curiouser (I love saying that), is another company I interviewed with week before last emailing me today saying they were “sick at the thought” of me not being available to hire any longer. I really did like them as well and its hard to make a decision such as this but I have to go with my heart. I’m hopeful it works out even half as much as I truly believe it will.
I’m at a crossroads and the crossroads is this… for many years, after my divorce, I felt my life was off track. I didn’t have that “life plan” that I thought I had. I would often wonder when things would start falling into place, when I would stop living day to day. I had to adjust when I did not want to adjust. I had to live a life I could not believe was mine for a very long time. I had to live in a city I never really wanted to live in. But yet, I had to compromise in pretty much everything I did for the sake of my son when every bit of me wanted to be selfish or at the least succumb to not caring. It has been very hard (at times) and it has taken a long while but the time to make things happen is now.
Two jobs? ME? Are you serious? But I’m going to do it, I’m going to make the best of it and I’m going to make it work for me. I’m going to be the best mother I can be, the best person I can be and while, like I said, being technically “unemployed” these past 6 months is not advisable and was nothing short of excruciating sometimes, it is the best thing that could have happened for me. I really feel, at 33, my life is starting fresh and I welcome the re-do. Or, maybe, the ex should have just gotten re-married sooner. Kidding. It honestly has nothing to do with him although an interesting coincidence.
Hmmm… what else? R’s visit was nice. “Nice” and “Neat” are funny words, not ever really telling you anything. We had a good time, but its hard. This long distance thing is no joke and takes a lot out of both of us. I need to learn to meet him halfway more, I really do, and not have such high expectations of every moment we spend together. I won’t get into it more than that, it’s really not fair to him - he does his best and I know he loves me. I need to take comfort in that fact more than I do. CRYPTIC ENOUGH FOR YA? *smile* What did I tell you about the asterisks? Yes, I’m really smiling!
If R and I ever do break up, Scars by Papa Roach will be put on repeat, repeatedly. Is that not the best break up song ever? But we’re not breaking up, not yet - dammit. Are we, honey? We aren’t. Nooo. You’re my boyfriend. Tee hee. Such a funny word, ain’t it?
Hey y’all - Go out and have a drink - on me!